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oh it's such a shame for us to part

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(no subject)	[Nov. 4th, 2009\|01:52 am]
hi how is everyone :)
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(no subject)	[Nov. 1st, 2009\|01:13 am]
I OFFICIALLY DREAD SEEING YOUR FACE...... IMNOT IMNOT so lameeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. two faced two faced p.s:jazreel just farted btw.
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(no subject)	[Oct. 27th, 2009\|09:58 am]
scared
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Dior Addict 2	[Oct. 26th, 2009\|06:06 pm]
prettyyyyyyy ~~~~ feels so horrible.. so horrible :'(
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(no subject)	[Oct. 24th, 2009\|08:26 pm]
" if you call me today, i'll say that i'm ..."
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[Oct. 22nd, 2009|02:24 am]

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hi i apologise if i'd hurt your feelings by saying some rly nasty stuff yesterday as we walked pass each other. it just slipped out of my mouth. that;s on my part, so i'm sorry. but that doesnt mean i like you i still don't btw.
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( you give me a headache )

(no subject)	[Oct. 20th, 2009\|07:32 am]
OH MY SO LOVELY you all should catch haeundae, it's so much better than all the supposedly feeeeel good movies like "500 days of summer, the ugly truth, surrogates" YOU MUST WATCH THIS and that korean guy is so cuteeeeee. criessssssssssssssss
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(no subject)	[Oct. 19th, 2009\|09:13 pm]
( (Life is good i can't complain haha..) )
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[Oct. 14th, 2009|06:26 am]

Crushed. Dashed

[Oct. 14th, 2009|07:47 pm]

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milk

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Dreams are always crushing when they don’t come true. But it’s the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You’re always close enough to touch but never quite close enough to hold and it’s enough to break your heart.

—	The Notebook

awwwww

Everytime we near i feel like ...

[Oct. 3rd, 2009|09:14 am]

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1)the insecure bunch sigh the insecure ones...
2)i hate the way you and your friends think. sooo stupid..and childish TO ALL SENSES Aahhhhhhhh
3)And it pains me to say i still do
4)i will build it up all over again (no matter how long it takes me)
5)I feel happy whenever i'm with you
6)hate mdm neo to the core (v true)
7) HANGING ON !!!!!!
8) just ignore. just ignore. yes just do it. -nike
9) you give me that kind of feeling

10) BACK TO THE HEART OF WORSHIP !!!!!!!!
11) so gullible. i can't believe you'll believe it. HAHA oh wait i can believe cos you're so dumb (act smart ya? :)

the disappointment of a telephone call

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Can you meet me halfway?	[Sep. 17th, 2009\|09:46 pm]
( Read more... ) I could really use somebody right now. How is it possible for me to feel sad when you're all happy and good. how'd you know them anyway? how come i didnt know. how come? i see your pictures it's been awhile. i see your smiles i wonder if they are real. i could remember i used to be that girl who made you smile i made you happy. i continue to look i just stare at it unbelieveably it feels this weird.. allowing myself this stab at happiness.. i go on and on ... my eyes are tired. i have to stop trying so hard. bye nq bye nq nq nq nq nq nq nq nq nq nq :( you're just way too pretty...
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|10:30 pm]

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"thinking of.... my lost ez card and used up the cash my parents gave me to remake it.."
"DEEP IN THOUGHTS"

"eh jie if my friend die right, can i use their ez link?"

OMG to think i would come up with such horrible thoughts.. haha

P.S: am not suffering from any love wreckage or whatsoever now but c'mon wl who needs love? (bsides God's)

Oooh darling who needs love?
Who needs a heaven up above?
Who needs the clouds, in the sky, not I

Oooh darling who needs the rain?
Who needs somebody that can feel your pain?
Who needs the disappointment, of a telephone call, not I
No I don't need that at all, not I

I'm, tired of love
Yeah, sick of love
I've taken more than enough

Oooh darling who needs the night?
The sacred hours, the fading life
Who needs the morning, and the joy it brings, not I
I've got my mind on other things, not I

Oooh darling who needs joy?
Who needs a perfect girl or boy?
And who needs to draw, that person near, not I
Because they always disappear, not I

And you know, I'm, tired of love
Yeah
Yeah I'm, sick of love
Yeah
You give me more than enough

I'm gone!

Oooh darling who needs love?
Who needs a heaven up above?
Who needs all the arguments, who needs to be right, not I
But I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No I just can't give up without a fight, not I
No no no not I
Ooh no no not I
No no no no no not I

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sigh who needs love...

Now that it's all said and done	[Sep. 11th, 2009\|10:36 am]
Not again. when it's time... i want the tears to start flowing but no. only softs sobs, no tricking of tears. yea the desperate grasp very sooo desperate. i sigh i sigh.. all the ridiculous wheezing. i lie on my bed and let the pain overwhelm me. kind of sad,no? i've nothing more to say. the different circle of friends, the change of mindset, the different wants and needs but the same old feelings... same. i wish i could let it all out at once. ok i think this is enough... heading 2years and ever the same. you'll never know how frustrating it is .. i'm really running out of words to say about how i feel... with pens and knives we made our plight
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[Sep. 7th, 2009|12:02 am]

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OK YA IM SO ANGRY RIGHT NOW YA.
NO?
YESSS I SO AM..

my dad apparently ACCIDENTALLY threw my wallet away. ok it's on my part i left it in some hideous lousy plstic bag and mixed tgtt with rubbish but he should have checked too.

ok so first my camera,my uncle's money, my i/c, and now my wallet? ARGH i think i'm going broke. oh ya the other dayyy i was so darn lucky i borrowed my sis's i/c and then when i reached home at 5 am in the morning lying on my bed getting ready to sleep i couldnt find it so i got changed and all.. WENT DOWNSTAIRS AT 5 AM TO LOOK FOR IT. it was so scaryyyyyyy. i thought someone was behind me but luckily i left it in the cab and the driver was so nice to pass it to cass who got off l8r WHICH SHE TOOL HALF AN HOUR TO CONTACT ME TO TELL ME MY CARD'S W HER. zongz zzz zongs. oh well at least i didnt lost my sis's i/c.

BUT SIGH. luckily my wallet some lousy crappish thingie with only 12 bucks and an ez-link card plus ermm...my topshop and edc membership card. ARGH. am angry again. mugfest + loss of items = GG.

sos please someone save me. i hope i strike lottery even though i didnt buy. geeeez.

SO I DECIDED ... i wont get emotional anymore i am going to... start doing something meaningful hahahaha. no. 1 on the list ) write 10 cards to 10 people ^.^

i used to wish you would...write (for me)

So am i your ship or your sea when you say i love you

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[Sep. 5th, 2009|12:43 pm]

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don't bother reading. i just need to rant. i mean seriouslty.

So is this really what it's all cut out to be? THE SLOW STAB AT HAPPINESS. very nicely done. very nice.

I'm not blaming God but i just want to blame someone for thisssss (though it's 100% affirmative it's my own fault)

argh how is it possible i could be so wrong abt some1

i am not happy
i am sad. (like the sinking heart ) sad.

i can't cry i really cant i'm squinting my eyes tight huffing loudly hoping this would help unchain and lessen most of my pain (u know u get better once u cry) but noooo.. i guess all the tears are dry they have no effect on someone like me anymore.

pathetic- --- -- no i promised myself i wouldn't sit back and wallow in self-pity let others have their way. but then there's this constant frown on my face. my head is going to burst. i mean given a choice, i wouldnt want to feel like this .. my long search for the key --- the one to be devoid of all emotions. stupid shmuck mentality. never happening.

all the effort and time i've wasted in this---unsubstantial. God please take this feeling away. the more i type the more i feel helpless and gone.....

it was all in my head .
never in yours (i thought so)

same stuff same stuff..same choice of words. i guess things don't change..

[Aug. 31st, 2009|07:41 pm]

YES YES, FINALLY IT'S OFFICIAL. I AM UNGROUNDED. YES. PRAISE THE LORD.

argh the past 3 weeks= gg

so today i went to my grandfather's place we went bishan. we made a new spects, we .. went shopping for fruits, cut our hair together and bought some other stuff, ate more chee cheong fan. hehehheehe awesomeeee :) then before that i went over to unice's place.. :) then right now i'm going to meet cass and friends, we are gna hanggggg. meetup at 11 pm yesssssss. monday night fever. hahahaha it's been so long. i can finally breathe.(again)

my dead boring 3 weeks:
i thought about 'how to be a better person' but obviously, failed, gtt depressed as usual, over things i wrote off as "moments" and prayed... and seeked God in between. i will not lie i managed 4 chpts of the new test. in 3weeks (putting in place i've nothing much to do besides physics ha ha) ,and then each time i close the bible i feel like taking on life with a new purpose. it's this recurring need for empowerment. sighhh. I so need God. (why do i sigh?)

But well newayz besides being faith-FUL , life was kind of horrible( i know ; my life is made up of only mop stopries)

i muddled along trying to sort things out as fast as i can. Nevertheless, i'll keep pushing on, You can count on me saying " LIFE IS AWESOME" within a year. i will be settled within a year, i will do whatever it takes. pushing on pushing. argh the thought sucks. THE PHASE SUCKS. for some reason, my heart is beating fast. APPARENTLY.

[Aug. 30th, 2009|09:48 am]

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I PROMISE I WILL NEVER LOSE YOU AGAIN. LOVES<3
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"omg your christian name is gernelle? "
*desperately trying to scratch something off my ic. "
"OMG IT'S REAL"

"uhh ya duh? "

"then how come i didn't know?!?!?"

"cos you didn't ask and besides my grandparents calls me sili and my parents call me Genne so i'm used to both"

"WAH LAO WHAT KIND OF FRIEND ARE YOU.. blah blah blah"

and life goes on... argh yesss 1 more day before i'm officially ungrounded (MMM) many must meet!